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Happy Rainbow Christmas!

My sister called me a couple of days ago because she wanted to talk about Christmas and how we’re both going to be there for the first time in 4 years.  She wanted me to know that she is still sad that I’ve chosen to live outside God’s will and that she hasn’t changed her mind about how she feels.  She said that she had been praying about it and reading the bible and had come to the conclusion that she needed to follow the lead of 1 Cor. 13.  The love chapter.  At the end of the verses on love it says that love bears all things.  Some versions say endures all things or circumstances.  She also said that everyone in the family knows how she feels about me and my situation.  That she loves me, but doesn’t think I am following God.  That she could continue to not spend holidays and occasions with me, but that it doesn’t seem necessary anymore.  Anything she says now will just be a loud gong or clanging cymbal in their ears.  So we will be together for the holidays.  She will endure it for the sake of the family.  She still loves me, but she knows that things will never be the same between us again.  She also said she knew it was going to be a little uncomfortable since we hadn’t been together for so long.  I told her that I wasn’t going to do or say anything to make her uncomfortable.  That I was glad that everyone would be together and looked forward to the family time.  That was basically all I said.  I am me and everyone knows that I am still the same person.  After I came out, everyone was a little uncomfortable at first, me included.  Actually, I had been uncomfortable for the 2 Christmases before because I knew what was coming.  I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin anymore because I was living a lie.  But we’ve managed to muddle through and now it doesn’t seem like a big deal anymore.  She missed all that muddling.  Hopefully the rest of the family won’t act weird because we are together again. Hopefully we can all just act normal.  Or normal for us.

I am a little disappointed though.  I guess that means the “I Am Gay” dance routine that I had planned is out!  And I’ll have to rewrap all those gifts I wrapped in Rainbow paper.  Man…

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  1. So sad to read this. My first Christmas after I came out, my mom, sister and mom’s family did not invite me to our annual family gathering. Instead, they asked my ex-husband to bring our children to the event. That was 5 years ago and nothing has changed. At least your sister was willing to “tolerate” your presence. Perhaps next Christmas, you can gift her with a copy of the book “What the Bible Really Says About Homosexuality” by Dr. Daniel Helminiak. I’m buying…

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