A tad bit stressed

Last week I applied for a teaching job.  It was a rather unexpected event to tell you the truth.  I knew that I might need to move back into teaching in the fall.  I knew that I would need more money to support myself.  I decided to check into some job fairs that many school districts have in the spring.  When I looked at one of the area school district’s website I noticed that they had an opening for a kindergarten position.  I debated applying but decided that it wouldn’t hurt to send in my application.  That was done last Sunday.  Monday afternoon I got a call about an interview for later in the week.  I wasn’t sure what to think.  I wasn’t sure what to tell my current employer.  I decided not to say anything because the chance of me actually getting the job was pretty slim, and I certainly didn’t need to cause my employer to stress out.  On Wednesday my boss made some comment about me turning in my 2 weeks notice.  I wasn’t sure if one of the two people I had confided in had mentioned my interview to her or not.  I explained what was going on, and she freaked.  She was totally joking when she said what she said about me giving her two weeks notice.  I told her that I wasn’t really looking…that I just had the one interview.  That in the fall I would probably need to do something that offered more benefits.  I think she would have handled it okay, but the district manager happened to visit.  She didn’t handle it well at all.  She kept telling me that I could make the same amount that the teaching job offered at my current job.  She is right.  I could make the same amount.  The difference is that word…could.  Teaching I will make that amount.  I will have a number of sick days.  I will automatically have vacation days for Spring Break, Christmas, and Thanksgiving.  There will be retirement benefits as well.  I don’t have any of those things where I currently work.  If I want to take a vacation I won’t get paid.  If I am sick or one of my kids is sick and I miss work…no money.  I do have insurance but no retirement.  I love my job.  I really do, but I know that I won’t be able to support myself on it for long.  I can’t continue to live paycheck to paycheck.  I have to be saving some money.  On Friday I had to leave work early.  About 15 minutes before I left a girl showed up to interview for my position.  I couldn’t believe it.  It really stressed me out!  I didn’t have a chance to talk to my boss about it then, and she is on vacation until tomorrow.  I have no idea what will happen.  I don’t think they will do anything crazy, but at this point I’m not sure.  I won’t be fired.  I know that much for sure.  I just don’t want to be demoted.  Even if they keep me at the same pay scale I will lose my insurance.  I won’t have the extra money that comes with my job.  I need every bit of what I make.  

As far as the teaching job goes…I interviewed.  I felt like it went well.  I know for a fact that at least one other person interviewed for the job.  We passed in the parking lot.  On the interview table I saw 3 folders similar to the one they put my information in.  So I am guessing that there were 4 of us interviewing that day.  After the interview I asked the principal when she was going to make a decision.  She said it would be a couple of weeks.  That tells me that more people will probably be interviewing.  I have no idea what my chances are.  I haven’t had a teaching job in 15 years.  I thought the interview went well.  I don’t know Spanish which would be an asset.  I’ve lived overseas and experienced different cultures which seemed to impress the panel.  I have absolutely no idea which way this will go.  I really wouldn’t care so much about not getting the job if I hadn’t said anything to my boss.  As it stands now I am going to be a little stressed until I talk to her.  Hopefully that will be tomorrow.   Hopefully after talking to her I will feel better and not worse!